Oh baby… This is slowly killing me…
I’m not sure what sucks the most. The distance or the fact that you won’t let us progress to something more because of the distance. Why can’t we just forget the obvious and just go for it? You think you’re scared of getting hurt? I’ve got so much more to be scared of and worried about.
I love that we’ve gotten back to how we use to be. I’m not sure why it took so long or why/how we got away from that in the first place, but if we can just keep things from fucking up again we can get through what we have to in order to be happy.
It absolutely kills me that you feel the way you do, and I feel the way I do, and yet here we are… far apart and miserable.
The distance is a hurdle that’s able to be jumped but I’m terrified of everything beyond that. I’ve never been so scared to love someone this much before, and yet still, I love you so much that I just want to cry.
My heart hurts so bad.
And you can’t sit and tell me that us not being together isn’t bothering you. That holding back how you feel and pushing away your feelings all because of a 4 hour drive is easy. Why do we have to be so complicated, baby? Can’t we just have what we want…feel what we feel…and be happy together?!